Tuesday night David, I and the boys went down to his mom's to pick up a bull. After supper I went up to the barn to help David load him. This farm was his daddy's life. We lost David's dad four years ago and I have probably only been up to the barn a handful of times since his death. When Larry was alive this is where you found him. This is where David and I spent many weekends helping as we needed to working cows or maybe just went down to ride horses for the day. Of course, this was David's life growing up.
When I walked in the barn I noticed a pair of gloves laying next to the barn door and it just hit me that this is probably the exact spot Larry laid them down over four years ago. Looking around at the things that were untouched and unchanged since his passing and then looking at all the things that had changed. The weeds are all growing up around everything, the barn is in desperate need of repair or be torn down. I started to get a little sad and teary eyed just thinking about him and the fact that he is gone. Then, I stopped and thought about all the wonderful times we had with Larry, especially on the farm. The weeds can grow up and cover everything, barns can fall down and disappear, but we will always always have the memories of our time with him here on this earth. Of course we miss the loved ones we lose, but as a Christian and knowing the loved one was a Christian there is a sense of peace and calm knowing that someday you will see them again. Knowing that they are in a much better place than this old world where weeds can take over. He has a new body where cancer no longer is destroying him...he is in a perfect world where thorns and weeds don't take over. So many times we have had family members/friends say...you know they were a good person, never did anything bad, worked hard, been a good husband, father, grandfather but they are here sick and dying while bad people are healthy and alive. I know suffering is hard to understand...I don't understand it myself. I do know that GOD cannot be blamed for it. Sooner or later we will all pass away from this life. Even the best of people will die someday. The only thing that matters in this life is knowing without a shadow of a doubt that when my time on this earth is finished where will I be. I know where I will be...my home will be in heaven. Do you know where yours will be?
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me and you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." Thomas said to him. "Lord, we don't know where you are going, so how can we know the way?" Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. " John 14 1-5
Can you turn over your life to Christ? We will never be perfect until we are with him in heaven one day, but we can strive to live a Christlike life and to turn everything we have over to him. All of our vices, our troubles, our worries, our sinful nature...everything can be turned over to him. It is a daily struggle no doubt to say Lord I am not going to worry about this...it is in Your hands...Lord with your help I can overcome this...Lord I don't want to live like this anymore, please help me. But, if you can ever do it you will have more peace than you can ever imagine. Give it all to Him...let Christ sustain your life!
"It's simple...just hard!"
(If you have ever seen them movie "What If" you can appreciate this line)
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