Is it enough...

For several weeks I've been dealing with the "is it enough" scenario". Am I doing enough? I work outside the home. I work inside the home. I homeschool...but I get bombarded by my own thoughts of I need to be doing more financially for our family. I mean really there are a few extra hours in the day 😳. Exhaustion doesn't completely set in until 11 pm or so...thanks to Spark! Then, I sit through church on Sunday and amazingly the sermon is on the family and exactly what I'm dealing with. The greatest thing that I can be doing for my boys is exactly what I'm doing. Pouring into them daily...not perfectly daily...but I'm trying. That it was impressed upon my heart several years ago to be here and to be present and to take upon myself the responsibility of teacher and mentor to them. That I'm here raising men..not boys. That the results of me doing so are not immediate results. In all honesty I might never see the end result. But, my goal is to raise men of God, Christ followers, Godly husbands, loving fathers, disciples of strength and morality to be lights in this dark world. I'm not doing it all just right. I'm not doing it perfectly. And while it may be killing me with all the beach, cruise, disney pictures that we may not get to be a part of like other people....money makes the world go round and money is nice and precious memories are forever treasured...I have to remind myself that this is our journey. It's not like everyone else's.  There are different seasons of life and I need to embrace the season...even when it's not fun, or it's a little hard, or maybe not exactly the way I pictured it... God sees the end...we just have to hold tight to the reigns and enjoy the ride...bumps and all.