Crazy...yeah a little!

We are back at it! We officially started our third year of homeschooling a couple of weeks ago. I was also asked the question "are you crazy"? Well, yeah, most days...but I wouldn't change a thing. I'm embracing our crazy. It's even more crazy because we have yet to find a house. So with most of our belongings still in storage it's been hard. But I think the crazy question came with the realization that we have a 9th, 7th, 4th grader and Kindergartner. So yeah...it's crazy but we are off to a great start and everyone is jumping right in to their work and doing awesome! Mom is hanging in there. There are some long days and nights with school, work and running kids here and there but I'm trying to embrace it. It has just hit me this summer that Dylan is almost 15. WOW! Hard to even type that. But I only have a few years left with him under my wing before he decides to fly the coop! I am excited about his future and what God has in store for him. He is a bright shining compassionate star with a big heart and I know he is going places. I also realize that my time is numbered before this happens and I try to make the best of each day! We work hard but we laugh hard also.

I've also been asked the question "why homeschool"? My answer is "why not"! I know that it isn't for everyone. I also know that not everyone could do it or have the opportunity to do it. God gave me the opportunity and I am blessed by that. He also gave me encouragement that this was the direction our family should take. I don't know why really. I do know that I was convicted to do it. I didn't just wake up one day and say...let's do this! There were actually many years of feeling we SHOULD do this but always resisting and pushing back. When I did finally give in and let God take control I was completely blessed. No, it's not easy. Yes, it's ALOT of work. No, we don't lay in the bed until 9 or 10. We aren't lazy. But if we need a lazy day we have the option to do so! Honestly, it would have been easier to send them to school. We have always had great teachers but for a long time I knew I was supposed to be doing something different. What I have found over the last 3 years is a deeper relationship with my boys. Something that I cherish and love. I've watched them grow, I've watched them struggle, I've watched them learn. I've watched them laugh. I've watched them cry. I've watched them become young men. I've watched them pray. I've watched them seek guidance. Not just from me or their dad but from God. I will look back with no regrets knowing I did what God told me to do. I will look back with no regrets even if I didn't do it perfectly...I did it. Even when I was scared...I did it scared. People worry that they will mess up their kids. The only way I can mess them up is if I stop caring. The only way I can mess them up is if I stop loving them. What I do daily is for them. It's not about me. It's not for me. Its easy to be caught up in a "me" world and I'm guilty of it. I'm not deserving of anything I have. I don't deserve to be blessed the way I have been blessed. It's a blessing to be their mommy. It's a blessing to be their teacher. It's a blessing I don't want to take for granted. It's a blessing that can disappear in a blink of an eye. I praise God! I am in awe that he has entrusted me with this great gift and job. God gave me the desires of my heart 14.5 years ago when he made me a mommy. I owe Him my very best in this adventure!