Me...the Israelite

I grumble. I groan. God provides. God provides what we need. Takes care of us when its tough... but I still grumble. I still seek more. I still want more. I still wish for more. I still say that isn't enough, I wanted twice that amount. Three times that amount. Oh how I fall into this trap so easily. God delivered the Israelites. He provided what they needed, he took care of them, he told them not to worry, he told them all was well and to trust in him. What did they do? They grumbled. They groaned. They wanted more. Because of their lack of trust they were made to wonder for 40 years. They were put to the test. The same test that God puts me through. "Are you going to trust me this time? Are you going to see that I will provide. I will take care of you. Do you see it yet?" No, I just grumble. It's so easy to get to this place...where the Israelites were. It's so easy for me to say but why can't I have this and why can't I have that. If I could only get this amount. If I could only have that much. I have found myself doing this all too easily. I pray for needs to be met. God meets them. I pray for an opportunity. God provides it. I pray...I pray...I pray...GOD PROVIDES...but do I TRUST? So why can we not just be thankful. Why can we not just offer up a joyful hallelujah thank you to our Lord Jesus when He does what He says He will do. Thanksgiving for the small things that go un-noticed throughout the day. Thankful for the big things we didn't expect. Thankful for the prayers being answered that we prayed but ...maybe they weren't entirely met in the way we had hoped....maybe they were met in the way that God saw fit. We may think it has to be big to be answered when in reality the smallest of smalls is as equally great. God provides...bottom line. But do I TRUST? "Grumbling causes stumbling" ...the Israelites stumbled because they would not fully keep there faith in God. They would not fully place their trust in Him that he would do what he said he would do. He had delivered them from slavery. Brought them out of bondage. Brought them to the wilderness. Provided food and taken care of them but yet they grumbled. I DON'T WANT TO BE AN ISRAELITE. "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Matthew 6:25-26 Tonight I just want to be thankful. Thankful that He is always there when I need him. Thankful He answers those prayers when He sees the timing is right. Thankful He still loves me even when I don't deserve it.I know I will falter and fail but I'm learning. I see David and He is so great at this...yes we all have our moments...but I can text him or call him about something and he just turns it into a moment of Thanksgiving at what God has done. I'm learning! TRUST. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7