Rest...

Sometimes I have to detach. I have to step away. The things of this world are so heavy and burdensome at times. People from a distance are going through so much. People up close are dealing with pain and loss. Sometimes I wear the burden and it's heavy. I breathe in all the anguish and fear of the unknown until it hits a point. Then I have to step away. Is that selfish? Maybe...but sometimes for the sake of my family and myself you just have to take time to breathe. Social Media seems to be the worst. A wonderful way to keep up with family and friends but horrible for every other thing that pops up negative that is happening around us. No, you cannot ignore these things and we need to be aware of events but I have to step back and see that my hope is not of this world. It's never going to be easy while we are here.  "All my deserts are rivers of joy". As a believer I know that this is all temporary...this is all a desert and one day we will meet those rivers of joy with no suffering, loss, fear, anxiety, torment and failure. We will reach the Holy kingdom where we will live in joyous praise for our King and Creator. Sometimes it is so hard to hear above the noise. Seeking Him daily for survival, answers and comfort. There is only one place to find rest...at the feet of my savior. So whatever you are going through....find your rest through Him. Find your peace in his presence....and breathe it in.

Sour Patch...

God is so good all the time but a few days ago I found myself in a sour patch. God has answered prayer after prayer. He has blessed us above and beyond.  But I found myself mentally stuck. Stuck with aggravation at things that were out of my control. Stuck with aggravation of life in general.  But I'm reminded daily just how good God is. Lately the song that has me singing at the top of my lungs at the red light is Chris Tomlin's "Good Good Father"

"You're a good good Father
It's who You are, it's who You are, it's who You are

And I'm loved by You
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am"

He reminds me daily...sometimes multiple time of who I am and what I have been called to be. I am His. He reminds me. He shows me. He re-assures me... I'm not in this journey alone. 

"Oh, I've heard a thousand stories
Of what they think You're like
But I've heard the tender whisper
Of love in the dead of night
And You tell me that You're pleased
And that I'm never alone"

I know that when I need answers I don't have to look far. When I need the peace and calm that only He can provide....he's always near. When things are tough and Satan creeps in to steal the joy...he's still near. He's still here waiting, listening...knowing. 

"Oh, and I've seen many searching
For answers far and wide
But I know we're all searching
For answers only You provide
‘Cause You know just what we need
Before we say a word"

He's a good good Father. He picks me up and wraps me in His arms. He comforts and consoles. He knows! 

"Cause You are perfect in all of Your ways
You are perfect in all of Your ways
You are perfect in all of Your ways to us"

That sour patch is Satan. He's working his way into my day creating doubts and fears of things that don't matter. He's there stealing love and joy out of our home. He's there whispering the lies of this world. He's there telling me I'm not worthy. He's there insisting I be doubtful and unhappy. He's there telling me I'm not enough. He's there.......but so is my Father with arms open wide reminding me I'm loved by Him. That no matter what this world throws my way. No matter what each day brings my future is secure with Him. My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness. He is my sustainer. He is my redeemer...

"You're a good good Father
It's who You are, it's who You are, it's who You are
And I'm loved by You
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am"