My feelings are hurt...

Someone said something. Someone did something. Something happened....I just don't understand it. I can't figure it out but my feelings are hurt. I sulk. I ponder. I try to work out the details in my mind. I try to make sense of it. I complain about it...yep I complain about it over and over and over. I complain to God. Why? Why this...why me...for what purpose? Yep...there might be a purpose. I complain and I complain to God. I ask for the perfect outcome. I don't deserve the perfect outcome. I'm not "more" than the person next to me who wants the same perfect outcome. I'm not "special" in any way. I'm just like anyone else.  My feelings get hurt by the simplest things and I want to complain to God to fix them when time and time again his feelings are hurt by me. My words, my actions, my motives...and I expect to never get hurt. I expect to walk through life with no disappointment when I disappoint my Heavenly Father daily. I deserve no different than the next. I deserve no more than anyone else. I deserve the worst. But then ...there is grace. Gods infinite grace poured out on me daily in everything around me and I miss it. I miss all the good things especially the little things because I'm too busy complaining. God is so good. His grace and mercy are poured out on me daily. May I rejoice in his blessings. May I rejoice in his greatness. May I look ahead at the things to come and the things right in front of me. May I let go of the things of the past. They cannot change. They cannot be undone...but they can be forgotten. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Praise God for the life given. Praise God for the trials and struggles that will make us draw closer to Him. His love endures forever...even when I don't deserve it!

Tis the Season...

It's been a couple of months and I feel like we are finally getting settled in the new house. It feels like it has been a whirlwind of a year with David taking a new job, selling our house, moving to my parents while we searched for a new house and then the whole search process that took longer than anticipated. I was anxious for a house. Ready to settle in and not live out of totes. Ready to have our space. What I didn't count on was the void I felt when we left mom and dads. I look back on the 9 months we were there and I am so very blessed and thankful for that time. What a privilege it was to spend that time with them. It was unique and not always easy but something I will cherish and I believe my boys will as well. We were able to spend quality time with them. Time that maybe we had never had before and quite possibly will never have again...in the sense of quality and quantity. We are settled though in our new home. We love it so far! We have been blessed with some of the most amazing neighbors and it has been a blessing to get to know them over the last few months!

As far as school goes it is hard to believe we are halfway through the school year. I am blessed daily by my crew. In this season I am extremely blessed by their giving hearts. They want to go above and beyond in doing whatever they can for others. Something I have tried hard to instill is having a servant heart. To be aware of their surroundings and when they see a need to do what they can to help....whether a big task is at hand or a little one...that we don't shy away but figure out a way to make a difference in someone's life.(speaking for all of us...not just he kiddos) In this season we tend to do "more" but I want it to be an all year long season of giving and "more" for others. That we don't focus on the "me" attitude but the "you" (what can I do for you?) attitude. That we spread joy daily...not just in a season! That we love on others continually...not just for a day! This world is hard and we don't always have it easy. We don't always have the means to do what our heart really wants to do but we always have the ability to do something. To make a difference with our words and actions and even small gestures that can make someone's day. Be that shining light wherever we are but most of all let the light that shines show Gods love to others!