For Ma...

It's just that time...

When we look back

On life and love

And of time spent. 

Remembering the laughter

Remembering the tears

But most of all 

Of the one we held dear. 

She was bold

She was strong

She was a wife

She was a mother

She was comfort

She was joy

She was like no other.

She was Ma!

It's just that time...

I remember our days 

when I was young. 

Times that I will cherish 

spent on the farm. 

Three hot meals a day

And she never complained. 

Biscuits and gravy with a side

Of cinnamon rolls for me. 

Feeding the goats and cows

With long walks to end the day. 

Quiet front porch sittin'

There was nothing missin'

It's just that time...

There's new work to do

She is with my Pa. 

As they stand in awe 

With the One

who loved them more. 

My joy comes in knowing

No more pain

No more tears

I will see them again one day. 

Praise God for life

Praise God for love. 

It's just that time...

I love you Ma!

The hardest...

One of the hardest things in walking as a Christian in this life is having a loved one who is unsaved. Maybe they are saved. Maybe you just don't know. I can only hope this is it. But my heart breaks...for many reasons. But mostly because I did not do all that I could to make sure that they knew. I waited too long. They are in the final stages of life and in their condition it's too late. I, as a Christian, will have to answer for that. I will have to face my Heavenly Father one day and account for this. Why didn't I? I could use every excuse...Someone else should have, they have been sick for so long, I hope they accepted Christ at some point, I know they knew, I know they had heard....but did they accept? Did they accept? None of the above matters if they never accepted. It wasn't anyone else's  job...it was mine. There are some people in our life that we share with and share with and they refuse to trust. They refuse to believe but you know you have tried. You have planted the seeds. You can dust yourself off, move on and you continue to pray for them. But what if you don't have this peace with knowing you have done everything possible to make sure they knew. It leaves an imprint. It leaves a dark hole that I'm not sure can be filled. I didn't do all that I could. I sit in church and it's missions. It's go out and tell the world when I can't even tell my own family. My highest priority is often my lowest. My first priority should be to ensure those closest to me know. That I have done all I can to ensure they know who Jesus is and what Jesus has done for them. We will account for this. I will account for this. I'm praising God for brokenness this morning. I'm praising him for the feeling I have right now. That I will never let an opportunity pass me by to share. To show Gods love. To make sure they know.... Jesus is Lord. Jesus is your Savior. He is your saving grace. He is the beginning..and he is the end. The only hope there is in this life is through HIM.