Some days....

Some days I just wonder what I am doing...why I am here...what is my purpose in this life! Have you ever felt that way? It is usually a passing feeling but sometimes it just hits me like a ton of bricks and pulls me down! Well I have an answer to one of those! I know I am here to be the mother to four wonderful little boys and I know that God has put me in this world if for nothing else, that purpose alone. It is a little scary sometimes! God has entrusted me (and David) with FOUR boys...four boys to be taught how to be men...four boys to be taught how to be Christian leaders in their families someday...four boys to be taught how to treat others...four boys to be taught what it means to be a Christian and what example that should be to other people! Sometimes it feels a little overwhelming!!! This week has been one of those overwhelming weeks. Not sure if it is just everyone starting to school...getting into a routine....lack of sleep...all those tired emotions from starting to school...did I mention lack of sleep???!!! Some days just seem like a fog and I guess I have forgotten over the last five years what that felt like with a baby in the house! Some days I feel like I am missing the whole picture but I know that His everlasting love embraces me even more when I feel this way. Is it Satan trying to get to me? Is it me searching for something more that He has for me to do? My answer would probably be "yes" to all the above...it is probably a little of both! I have this nagging that there is something I am supposed to be doing...or need to be doing...and I just don't know what it is! My prayer is "Lord, reveal yourself to me...show me your way and not mine...what do you want from my life...how can I let your light shine through me." I know that He hears this prayer and I know that when He is ready He will show me the way! I know God has a plan...a divine plan and I must be patient! Patience is not a strong point with me...but definitely something I am praying for help on!

"Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged, The Judge is standing at the door!" James 5:7-9

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:4-7



written when Dylan was little...(for all my boys)!

Sometimes I get lonely and sad
Sometimes I don't know who I am
But when I look at you
It all makes sense
You are my true love
My greatest accomplishement

When you look at me
With those big blue eyes
That's all I need
That angel of mine
You make me laugh
You make me cry

You give me all the reasons why

You're the reason for my happiness
The reason for my joy
Your the reason I can shout from rooftops
I love you more and more

It's because of you I wake up in morning
Because of you my heart keeps beating
Because of you I know this love
Is the greatest love of all

You are the greatest love of all
You are my greatest love of all!

Hi Ho Hi Ho it's back to school we go...

Can you believe summer has passed so quickly? Me neither!!! I so enjoy having my boys home in the summer time having lazy days, just hanging out, taking little trips...just being together! Although we didn't take one big trip this summer we did lots of fun things together...camping, fishing, hiking, swimming, Dylan and David at 4-H camp and then at Centri-Kid, fun with friends...it was just a really good summer. It makes me sad for them to go back and not have them with me but I am very happy that they are excited about school and enjoy it like they do. It is hard to say goodbye when they start back but I am so very thankful for the Godly Christian teachers that each of them have this year...definitely an answer to prayer! Dylan is going into the 5th grade! How is it possible that my sweet first born will be going to the middle school next year...he is growing so quickly! It seems like yesterday I was walking him in for his first day of kindergarten. Mason is heading off to 3rd grade...again how is this possible that my loving caring Mason is getting so big. I have lots of prayers for my children but right now I have a special prayer for Mason and that is for him to find a good friend...a buddy! He has lots of friends but not that one good buddy that comes over and spends the night or that you can run pick up to go do something fun! Dylan has always had lots of good friends at church his age and that he can go home with or can come home with us but there just aren't a lot of boys Mason's age! God hears our prayers and I am sure in time he will bless Mason with a very good friend! On to Jack! What in the world am I going to do without my Jack Jack next week??? I cannot imagine sending him off. For several years he was the baby in the house! He is so ready to go and I am so thankful but I know that after I drop him off Monday...momma's gonna cry! He is a very special boy...who has never met a stranger! He is my social bug! He is so much like his daddy it isn't even funny! He can talk to anyone, make friends with anyone, he loves everybody and everybody loves him! He has a very compassionate heart...he loves "older" people. When most kids would shy away from an elderly man or woman...he will go crawl up in their lap and love on them! He is just special in that way! My goodness it will be so strange no having him here with me! Noah will be lost for sure when it is just him and me! Momma may be a little lost too..but I know God is watching over them and wraps his loving arms around them every day!

Livin' Inside Out...In An Upside Down World...

So proud of Dylan, Mason & Jack! They were once again in our church children's choir musical on August the 7th and they did a wonderful job! Dylan had a solo and one of the main speaking parts and he did a FANTASTIC job...so very proud of him. Mason had a speaking part and Jack was up there singing with them. This was a musical about a boy who was all "puffed up with pride" but through the help of his friends he soon learned that he needed Jesus in his heart. The whole crew did a wonderful job on Livin' Inside Out...In An Upside Down World!

My Baby is "1"...

Hard to believe that a year has passed by since we brought our precious Noah home from the hospital. This precious little boy is growing so fast! My heart is saddened a little knowing we are quickly leaving the "baby" stage...but look so forward to what God has in store for my boys that it is hard to stay sad long as this precious little thing begins to show his personality! Let's just say David and I may be in for it with Noah! No...he is a sweet little boy who loves to snuggle still but he is always into something. His new thing this week is touching everything...pointing and wanting to touch it. Happy Birthday Sweet Baby Noah!!! We love you very very much! As you can tell from his picture he loves his cupcakes!

When I saw you

The very first time

I couldn't believe

That you were mine.

With those tiny hands

And little feet

Those first cries

Made my life complete.

What more could I want

In this life of mine,

Than to hold my babies

In my arms each night.

Smiles on those little faces,

Goodnight kisses

And bedtimes wishes.

I couldn't ask

For any more, you see

I've got everything

I could ever need.

With those tiny hands

And little feet

Those first cries

Made my life complete.